Sunday, November 30, 2008

Pics to Break Your Heart

Today was a tough site-changing day for Sydney. Every 3 days we have to change the location where her insulin port is located. She has her glucose sensor in right now and that means her port site has to be at least 3 inches away from the sensor. As you can imagine, that limits the places we can put her site on such a small body. Usually she does such a great job but today, after we insterted the site, Sydney had a breakdown moment because she hates her diabetes. She just wanted her daddy this time...usually it's me but tonight she wanted him. She kept asking him why she has to have diabetes and why can't we make it go away. Now some of you might ask why I documented this in pictures and I guess it is because I want to look back someday and remember it...the good and the bad. This experience has shaped who we are and who we are becoming; where we've been and where we're going. I think, someday, Sydney will want to look at these pictures too because she will never remember life before diabetes nor will she remember the early parts of life with this disease. Don't mistake what I am saying though, it is not easy or fun to snap these pictures but I think someday we will want to look back at this part of our life. Other than that, I can't really explain it. I guess maybe it is something you will have to go through in order to understand. It is probably different for everyone but this is how we feel.

~Trying to be brave.


~Asking how come she has to have diabetes.


~Wondering if it will go away.




~Morgan trying to kiss her owy all better.

~Morgan hates seeing her big sister cry.

11 comments:

Aubri Lynne said...

This breaks my heart. Hugs to you and little Sydney. What a precious family you have.

wendys said...

Morgan is so sweet to comfort Syd. What a brave little girl.

KLTTX said...

Sydney is such a brave girl. I can understand why you would want to document things with pictures. Hopefully one day she'll be able to look back on these pictures and feel proud of the way she handled everything. So cute of Morgan to kiss her tummy.

Goodwin Family said...

what a brave little girl you have! I hope that it gets easier for her someday and i'm positive that one day you will look back at these pictures and be so glad that you have them!

TheAlbrechtSquad said...

Awww, those are heartbreaking. Even amidst the tears I think you guys are so brave! She couldn't have a better support system!!!

ashycam said...

What a brave little girl. I don't think I would like to do that either and I am sooo much older. Hang in there Syd, it will get better. We love you Syd. We are so sorry you have to go through this. Morgan is soo sweet. Kayla is the same way.

Stringham Family said...

I don't even know what to say. How heartbreaking. My heart just aches for her! I can't even imagine going through such a horrible thing at such a young age. Poor Syd. What a wonderful little sister Morgan is! You and Loren are such good parents. Hang in there, I hope and pray that someday there will be a cure for Syd! I'm so sorry you have to go through this!

Greg & Andrea said...

That almost made me cry. You guys have a lot to deal with. You really are an amazing mom. Tell Syd to be strong. I'm really sorry that she has to deal with all of this.

Micah and Jen said...

Poor little thing! She is so brave! Hopefully she will be in the generation for that cure!!! Hugs sweet girl!

carrie said...

Ohh, that was not nice to let a prego lady see...the tears! I just want to squish her with hugs! Such a brave girl! We love you Syd! I finally got to see all your new posts! Whahoo! Love you girl!

kay babe 22 said...

I LOVE YOU SYD!!! you are very brave and always no that you have your family's shoulders to cry on and no we will be there and do everything in our power to help you get better. i love you so much everyone