Pics to Break Your Heart

Today was a tough site-changing day for Sydney. Every 3 days we have to change the location where her insulin port is located. She has her glucose sensor in right now and that means her port site has to be at least 3 inches away from the sensor. As you can imagine, that limits the places we can put her site on such a small body. Usually she does such a great job but today, after we insterted the site, Sydney had a breakdown moment because she hates her diabetes. She just wanted her daddy this time...usually it's me but tonight she wanted him. She kept asking him why she has to have diabetes and why can't we make it go away. Now some of you might ask why I documented this in pictures and I guess it is because I want to look back someday and remember it...the good and the bad. This experience has shaped who we are and who we are becoming; where we've been and where we're going. I think, someday, Sydney will want to look at these pictures too because she will never remember life before diabetes nor will she remember the early parts of life with this disease. Don't mistake what I am saying though, it is not easy or fun to snap these pictures but I think someday we will want to look back at this part of our life. Other than that, I can't really explain it. I guess maybe it is something you will have to go through in order to understand. It is probably different for everyone but this is how we feel.

~Trying to be brave.


~Asking how come she has to have diabetes.


~Wondering if it will go away.

~Morgan trying to kiss her owy all better.

~Morgan hates seeing her big sister cry.